I had read somewhere, a sentence or two, stating how one has to disintegrate to reconstruct one's life. It stayed with me, mainly because I believe this to the core. Sometimes, it's about things getting so bad, whether it's one's health, relationships, or work, or all of the above, to be able to hear one's inner voice screaming for help and then acting on it.
We fall, and keep on falling, down the rabbit hole, the type we believe we may never come out of... but we do. "We can do hard things," as Doyle famously states in her memoir, Untamed, and later uses as the title for her popular podcast.
The reward is waiting on the other side of fear.
The sentence or two I had read somewhere, were from this book which eventually found its way to me this past weekend. I have a few pages left to read, only because I don't want it to end. Possibly, because I feel in relationship with Doyle. A friend I don't want to wish goodby because I, too, had to disintegrate to find myself. I, too, found clarity and integrity in sobriety. I, too, recognized that things had to change or else. It took years of hard work, but it was the road to the other side.
I was going to start this blog with a plead to listen to your intuition, to stop numbing it with shopping, eating, drinking, drugs, sex, social media, to stop and get still. Really still. And listen. Feel the hard feelings in order to find yourself. Instead, I chose to start the blog writing about this memoir. A gem for those who search for answers everywhere else, but themselves. I know it takes work to get there. It takes courage, it takes commitment, and not all want to take the rough and difficult journey.
For those who do, I hope this post inspires you to give this memoir a read. Trust the journey. No matter how hard. Freedom is waiting.
Ana Martinez Orizondo
Pastel artist, writer and photographer.